Good girl vs. me

The good girl follows the rules and listens to the adults. She tries to fulfill all the expectations of her. Not only she "behaves" all the time, but she also tries to anticipate what is going to be required of her. The good girl does not show a lot of creativity. Her talent is to be efficient and accurate. The good girl feels good when she is pleasing other people. The good girl might sometimes politely disagree, but very quickly her mind can be convinced by other people's points of view. This good girls is not very certain about many things, she is always wavering between some inner feelings (noise) and other people's knowledge. She often chooses to believe in other peoples ideas and dismiss hers as problematic, unprepared or unimportant. The good girl speaks very low, sometimes people can't hear her. She does not want to be impolite, improper or bossy. She also really dislikes making mistakes, she rather not make them. And when she does, she feels like her true self is revealed. "Now everyone knows how clumsy/careless/lazy/ignorant I really am" she thinks and sighs. She would really like to be like someone else. She wants to be like the little girl in the playground that is confident but not arrogant. That is who the good girl is. The rest is me.